Hi Assalamualaikum.
January almost reach to an end. How was your month so far?
Well, mine, I can say that it was not quite good. with my studies some more. It's so hard. I know my course is the most hectic course, (I knew just after I enrol in this course), but I know some part in me can do this. I know, I just know. I believe in myself. I can do this.
But I don't know, when I think back, the course isn't so hard. It just need lots of effort and self-study. yeah. It's easy to say. Actually, I'm weak at that. I'm weak at putting lots of effort. I'm just too lazy, even though I know I am doing preparation for me to fly oversea. I don't know. It's not that I didn't realise of my mission to fly, but I, I'm just too lazy :( Oh gosh.
If I want to go to the class, well I don't have problem with that. It just, I usually not productive enough, I can feel that my brain wasn't functioning very efficient. I always feel like I'm the weakest person in the class, sometimes I feel like I couldn't do the task given by lecturers, sometimes I feel like I gotta rely to someone, see his/her work, then only I can do the task.
I don't know. I know I have to change. but I don't have the 'courage'. But I do want to fly, I do want to succeed. oh gosh.
